Friday, August 29, 2014

Always Wandering

With all the stress that can come with work and the inability to take time to cook and clean as often as I would like, taking time during an off day to just make a nice breakfast and then take a walk down a trail enjoying the outdoors. It's actually been awhile since I have wandered as I did. I made it down a new part of a trail I had yet to explore, and then circled through downtown. It was a nice, breezy walk. Although, my pale skin did get a bit sunburned.

This weekend I will be spending time at PAX Prime with friends and coworkers, and I cannot wait. The only downside is that DragonCon is in Atlanta, and many of my friends will be there, but at least we're all getting to have some nerdy fun. It's like being together, without really being there.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Six Months Ago...

We've hit the six-month mark in our marriage, which means that we're halfway through the first year. The "tough year" as it's known for. I haven't noticed it being tough at all, but that's a good thing, I say.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Your Word, My Word, The Word, a Word

Connotative and definitive meanings can differ vastly from word-to-word. Our language is fluid and expandable--due to colloquial use and traditional tense. And one word that garners more support and hate in a single moment, is the word "faith." 

faith, noun (source)
  1. confidence or trust in a person or thing:
    in another's ability.
  2. belief that is not based on proof:
    had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.
  3. belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion:
    firm faith of the Pilgrims.
  4. belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.:
    be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.
  5. a system of religious belief:
    Christian faith; the Jewish faith.
  6. the obligation of loyalty or fidelity to a person, promise, engagement, etc.:
    to appear would be breaking faith.
  7. the observance of this obligation; fidelity to one's promise, oath, allegiance, etc.:
    was the only one who proved his faith during our recent troubles.
For the religious or spiritual, it means something beyond us. For the patriotic, it means something religiously loyal. For the positive, it means more than it does to the cynic. 

What I have often found with those who say they have no "faith," is that they disregard the little acts of faith we display every day--those moments where we let go of our reservations and allow ourselves to believe that someone or something will come through for us. We trust each other, we trust what we create, we even trust what others create. If we can do that, even in the smallest ways, then believing that others have faith elsewhere can't be that hard to wrap one's mind around.  But it is, because it's easy to poke fun rather than to empathize.

The religious affiliation of faith is often referenced to someone that cannot be seen. There isn't an ignorance or blindness that comes with faith; it is what it's lexical definition portrays it to be: faith. Just because it is not tangible, does not mean it is in no way there. There are mysteries of this world that we have yet to uncover in all of the centuries we have inhabited it. What we choose to take from our experiences on this planet are ours alone.

Those who exhibit faith in someone or something shouldn't be put down, but uplifted. Those with faith--of any kind--dare to believe in something. They do not wish to live their day-to-day believing there is no reason for anything. Those with faith are brave, and those who recognize their faith--religious or not--feel fulfilled and satisfied. Isn't that what many of us want? 

Friday, August 1, 2014

The Quiet

Some days, talking takes too much effort. Perhaps it is the anxiety disorder, or the fact that I am also highly introverted. Whatever the case may be, as much as I do love and care about the people in my life, I do find myself wanting to shut everyone out and just explore my own mind for awhile. There is a calm there, there is no fear there, no stress there unless I let it be. I've found control in my mind, and an escape from whatever may be lurking around me.

There is no pontificating, shallow attempts at validation or arguments. It is only me for a little while, and perhaps some music to set the atmosphere on the right rhythm. I'm where I should be when I'm to myself.

The trees here stand so tall. They loom over everything--mostly pine, some other breeds--but they blend into beautiful hues of green, yellow and blue. The trees give me inspiration to explore and to create.

My nights have grown longer, and my days have grown shorter. I make excuses for why I'd rather stick to a routine. But when I do break off and decide to take a walk or ride my bike, I feel fulfilled. I'm somewhere else for awhile; I'm coasting.