Friday, April 15, 2011
"I just wanted to be sure of you."
"Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. 'Pooh,' he whispered.
'Nothing,' said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw, 'I just wanted to be sure of you.'"
There are very few things in this world of which I am absolutely certain--and I can feel redundancy as I write this line once more. I know each day the sun will rise, but I am not sure for how long I will be able to enjoy it. I know there is a God who loves me, and to whom I owe everything, but I do not know when I will see everything I have been taught and study unfold. I know I have loved ones who will always be there for me, but I do not know how long before it fades as well.
Love for anyone or anything is quite a terrifying experience. We find ourselves fixated and obsessed with those who have given us a reason to be. We just want to be sure of someone--sure there will always be someone there when we need them. In one way or another, for good or bad, the people in my life have saved me. Without them, I could have been someone completely different; I may not even be here to write this. They have given me strength, support and hope. When I was at my lowest, I always had someone there to pick me up. Somewhere, some omniscient person says it is better to pick yourself up and keep going.
It is easier said that done. I am human, and I need someone there--just a smile or a hand.
Another semester full of memories, stress, tears and laughter is passing before my eyes, and I can barely comprehend the speed of time anymore. Growing up was a grueling process, it seemed. Now I am left with hours in the day slipping past me and time with my loved ones constantly running thin. It is a saddening truth to my life--in and out of dorms, only getting to see my family for short periods of time and then the summer for a bit. My life is always changing, but I have someones to be sure of until the very end. I take pride in that.
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