Saturday, May 21, 2016

Visit from Melody

Melody is in town, and I'm just so incredibly happy and overwhelmed to have her so close to me again. These next 8 days are going to be amazing. I'll keep you posted.

For those of you who don't know, you can learn more about my best-friendship with Melody, check out an older post with her "Show and Tell: Melody" - 

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Happiness vs Joy

noun  hap·pi·ness \ˈha-pē-nəs\
1: the state of being happy
2: an experience that makes you happy

noun \ˈjȯi\
1: a feeling of great happiness
2: a source or cause of great happiness : something or someone that gives joy to someone
3: success in doing, finding, or getting something


Once, while sitting in church as a teen, I remember hearing my pastor explain the difference between joy and happiness in a way that I hadn't ever thought. That Sunday morning he explained that joy cannot exist without happiness, but happiness can exist without joy. The simplest definition of joy seems almost synonymous with happiness, but I don't know that I agree with it anymore after hearing what my pastor had to say. 

According to my pastor, happiness is about the tangible, smaller moments - the hours, minutes and days that make you smile and make you feel "happy." Joy is about the all-encompassing, overwhelming sense of wholeness. 

Naturally this was tied into a conversation about how God's love makes us whole - because it was church - but it really made me stop to think. When I was a child, we used to sing "Joy, Joy, Joy Down in My Heart." How can you fully embrace and understand what joy is supposed to be? 

Do I have joy? Yes. But I didn't always. Sometimes your soul just needs a re-alignment. You need to find the reasons why you're a whole human being worth being loved. And I don't mean someone else loving you, I mean you loving yourself.

The best way I have learned to do this in the past is to cling onto to those happy, little moments. Remember them. Cherish them. Be grateful for them. Let them make you smile when you're sitting silently to yourself. The more of those that you can recall in your darker times, the easier it will be to let go of the dark. Be close to those around you, and let them in. I believe that happiness is well-deserved by all. But I also believe that finding Joy through God, in your life and with others is the ultimate testament to feeling whole and having a fulfilling life.

It's all about perspective. 

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Pinball Hill

We painted the town red with drinks, pinball and poetry. We started with burgers and beers in Capitol Hill. I found a brew called Banana Bread, and it smelled exactly like that. It paired nicely with the burger titled "Morning After Burger" topped with a fried egg. There were books that we explored from the intellectually informative to the literary. I refrained from buying anything. We added another friend to our threesome and made it an even four as we headed towards a very narrow bar full of pinball machines. We took shots of Baker's bourbon and sipped on whiskey sours. I excelled at the Spider-Man pinball machine, and we competed for the title of the Monster Bash. Tipsy and happy, we read poetry aloud to each other in that very loud bar across a Galaga tabletop in accents under the picture of Jesus who looked like he was weeping at the show. It was a great Monday night.

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Witch Circles and Brunch

Today before work I went to brunch with Savannah and Berto. I took them to Hoffman's, we shared goodies and sandwiches across the table, and then wandered for a while. It was a bit aimless, but when we discovered a trail to the middle of a wooded area, Berto immediately exclaimed, "Dude, nature is bae!" and we kept going.

We made it to a clearing. We discussed what it might be used for - teenage orgies and drinking? Totally harmless parties? Summonings? We landed on it being the perfect place for a witch's circle. There were smooth, round stones gathered in the corner and lots of space to move around.

I'm happy spring is here. I'm happy that there is coffee and sammies and nature to explore. I'm happy that nature is bae. I'm happy that I get to do this with friends on the few hours I have before heading into work on a Saturday.

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Turkey and cranberry sandwiches.

Today I made the decision to make myself get up and walk. This probably wasn't my best idea given that I had just worn my legs out walking home from a meeting at work Monday, but I knew that if I didn't get out there and write something, I never would. After I wrote for a little while at Starbuck's, I remembered that downtown there is a relatively new pastry bakery. The sign for the place is honestly really unassuming and doesn't remind me of a bakery, but when you walk in all the goodies are a dead giveaway.

The place is called Hoffman's. They have tiramisu, macaroons, scones, specialty cakes, coffee, tea, sandwiches, quiches, soups and salads. I got their turkey and cranberry sandwich on a butter croissant. It was so light and delicious. I got the combo with a salad - lettuce, chickpeas, onions, tomatoes and raspberry vinaigrette.

So while I wrote, I enjoyed the delicious food and gazed out the window, happy that it's spring and 74-degrees. (And the fact that I walked there meant I didn't have to feel guilty for devouring Hello Panda and Pocky with Tripp after dinner.) Savannah was working from home with a headache, so I dropped by and delivered her her own sandwich, and she was very grateful. It's good to try the new things in town. There is actually a restaurant that I keep forgetting to try not that far from Hoffman's. Perhaps I'll take Savannah when she's feeling better.

P.S. The Community Blog with Savannah that I mentioned before has now launched to its fullest capacity through the official Xbox platform Click on the name for more. :)